The Big Decision about my Future…


What has been going on?

As you’ve probably noticed from the constant spam floating around on my Twitter account yesterday. I made a trip to the University in Leiden with my sister. Picking what I want to do in the future has probably been one of the most nerve wracking decisions I have ever had to make. I’ve been so stressed lately and have been pondering every second of the day on what to do…

After taking lots of studies in account and visiting a great amount of open days I finally had it figured out a few weeks ago. I didn’t want to celebrate to early though, and that’s why I jumped at the chance to join a first year student for a day. I dragged my sister -who’ll probably be studying medicine next year- with me. Together we attended the classes on schedule for the day.

Honestly, I am so glad that I decided to stick with what I love, which with some common sense everyone can figure out (I mean, you’re on a book blog here…). Literature. Yes, I am sticking with my decision, and next year you’ll find my studying English Language and Culture. Yesterday was so much fun and I can’t wait to start studying!


So what did I learn (and what book did we discuss)?

New Historicism.

New Historicism is a literary theory based on the idea that literature should be studied and interpreted within the context of both the history of the author and the history of the critic. It acknowledges not only that a work of literature is influenced by its author’s times and circumstances, but that the critic’s response to that work is also influenced by his environment, beliefs, and prejudices.

A New Historicist looks at literature in a wider historical context, examining both how the writer’s times affected the work and how the work reflects the writer’s times. Studying the history reveals more about the text; studying the text reveals more about the history.

The Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad

Dark allegory describes the narrator’s journey up the Congo River and his meeting with, and fascination by, Mr. Kurtz, a mysterious personage who dominates the unruly inhabitants of the region. Masterly blend of adventure, character development, psychological penetration. Considered by many Conrad’s finest, most enigmatic story.

Have any of you read this book?

I haven’t read it yet, but from what I heard, and from what was discussed in the lecture I definitely interested. I don’t know whether I like it I don’t know… Because I’ve spoken with quite some students, and most of them told me that the book they discussed before was Northanger Abbey (a shame that they didn’t discuss it this week because I have read this one, and as you all know Jane Austen is my favourite author). They told me that the students that enjoyed Northanger Abbey, didn’t really enjoy The Heart of Darkness. Anyway, I’ll be reading it without a doubt, maybe I’ll read it for fun in a few weeks, and if not I’ll read it sometime next year during Literature classes.

Where do you see yourself in the future? (study, work, etc.)

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  1. 28/11/2013 / 23:11

    I’m so excited for you! I hope you love studying literature. :)

    Oddly enough, I have a post about university going up tomorrow… except mine is a bit of a rant lol. I’m studying digital arts, and I do love digital arts, but I hate how broad my degree is. In my first year of study I learned a few things:

    * I still love web design (always have)
    * Filmmaking makes me fall asleep
    * I HATE 3d modeling and animation

    And yet, I’m now in my third year and I’m unable to pick my classes. So instead of being able to focus on what I love (web design), I have to take EVERYTHING, including some filmmaking, 3d modeling, animation, and digital effects classes that I hate so much. :( Taking classes I hate really upsets me and stresses me out. Especially as project deadlines draw nearer, I find myself getting moody and ‘down’ a lot of the time because I don’t want to work on these stupid projects!! GRR!

    • Iris
      29/11/2013 / 00:38

      I feel like studies, and university and all is on everybody’s mind at the moment… at least it is like that with every body I hang out with. The pressure has been killing and I can’t begin to explain to you how much of a relief it is to have finally figured this all out.

      Its great that you know that you do love web design and that its still what you want to do, but I can only imagine the stress of not being able to focus on the parts you love. I know by firsthand experience how frustrating it is if g=you have to take classes you don’t like of classes you’re not good at. Its so damn crappy that it infects your mood.

      But hey… hopefully it’ll get better. Is this your last year? or how many years do you have to go. You’ll probably will be able to focus on just one aspect of the study (web design) once you’ve completed the study… Or when you pick a masters degree?

      I hope It’ll get better for you!

  2. 30/11/2013 / 00:45

    Congrats!! Best of luck with your studies!

    I’ve read Heart of Darkness and it’s probably my least favorite book ever. Love Jane Austen, though! lol. Hope you like HoD more than I did!

    • Iris
      30/11/2013 / 18:12

      Ew… I hear that a lot though, that people who enjoy reading Jane Austen loathe this read. So that doesn’t bode to well for me. I’ll just read it and see what I think!

  3. 30/11/2013 / 01:49

    Good luck and all the best with starting your studies! It’s huge and scary to take massive steps into the unknown. But doing what you love…that’s just awesome. :)

    • Iris
      30/11/2013 / 18:13

      Aw thank you! It is scary for sure, but I just try to keep in mind that I want to end up doing what I love. I’m reading to start University, and it’ll be scary at first but it’ll -hopefully- be fun as well!

  4. 16/12/2013 / 22:32

    It’s great you are sticking with something you love! I think that, if I wasn’t so madly in love with biology too, I would have picked something like this too :)

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