A few days ago I read this post on Jamie’s blog. Jamie is one of my favourite bloggers and I was quite stunned with how honest she was. She stated that “too often we forget that there is a whole life behind the people that write and read blogs” and that’s so true. You follow a blog, you read their posts, but it is so easy to forget that there is indeed a whole life behind the people that write -and read- blogs. She got the idea for this blog post from Ashley at Your Super Awesome Life. Ashley typed out what she’d talk to her readers about if she was meeting them for coffee. I loved this idea, so I too am going to give this a try.
As I’m typing this I am snuggled underneath a blanket with my laptop on my lap. I’ve finished my coffee a while ago, and I’m ready for another one. I don’t like my coffee black, but with some creamer in it is just the way I like my coffee and if we were two old friends catching up grabbing some coffee you’d probably already know that.
If we were having coffee… I’d tell you that I’ve been so excited about finally figuring out what University I wish to go to, as well as what study I want to do. I’ve been having doubts about what to do for the past three years and you can’t imagine what a relief it is to have it finally figured out. To have finally figured it out and to be certain about where it is I want to be next year.
If we were having coffee… I’d tell you about how much I enjoy reading, and continue to enjoy it even more as my blog grows. I’ve met so many great Bloggers and Authors, I enjoy every second talking to them and enjoy the bookish discussions even more.
If we were having coffee… I’d tell you how much I enjoy being a niece. I love to see them grow up, and become their own person. How they form opinions and slowly find out what they like and dislike. I pride myself in being there for them, I hope they’ll enjoy spending time with me as much as I enjoyed spending time with my bigger cousins when I was younger (and still do!). I hope they’ll grow up to see me be the person that my cousins are for me and most of all that they’ll feel safe with me and confide in me as I do with my cousins.
If we were having coffee… I’d tell you about how sad I still am for not graduating last year. I thought I was past the disappointment of not having made it. Past the disappointment of not being able to talk about University life with all my friends that did graduate, and past the disappointment of having to do yet another year of high school. I don’t know how to properly explain the Dutch school system to you, but because we’re friends catching up I’ve probably already have told you that the Dutch School System is hard. High School is divided in three levels, Lower level (called VMBO), Middle level (called Havo), and Higher level (called VWO). After graduating from Havo I continued to the higher level (which is unusual, but it was my dream to go to University). School has never been easy for me, I’ve studied very hard and not making my last year, the year that I was supposed to graduate and would allow me to go to university was a big disappointment to me. Like a slap in your face disappointment.
If we were having coffee… I’d tell you how I’m really unhappy at the school I’m currently studying in order to get my VWO diploma. I miss my friends. The same friends that are having a great time and at the same time are being swamped with homework assignments in University. I don’t like the atmosphere at the school, and have a very hard time managing to get up every morning to go to school.
If we were having coffee… I’d tell you that I hate being unhappy. I hate how my parents and sister see that I’m unhappy and don’t know how to help me. I hate feeling this way and can’t wait for this year to be over, to graduate and finally go to university. To get over the big disappointment that I can feel hanging over my head every time I walk into that school building.
If we were having coffee… I’d tell you how much of a relief is to tell you all of this and get it all out in the open. How liberating it feels to just tell you have I’ve been feeling the past weeks.
If we were having coffee… I’d tell you how much I appreciate that you’re willing to listen to me, and to take the time to hear what troubles me. I’d probably tear up a bit and give you a watery laugh, stating that I’ve been talking to much and ask you what’s going on in your life, because after all, having coffee with an old friend is not all about me.
If we were having coffee… I’d give you a hug, thanking you for your support and tell you how much I appreciate all of you. How I appreciate my family for supporting me, but also the kind blogging community that has helped me immensely finding joy in a time that isn’t really going great for me. I’d give you another hug as we say goodbye and thank you again for taking the time to have coffee with me.
If it was you that I was having coffee with… what would you want to tell me? Come on, just lay it out there. I’ll sit down and take the time for you, as you’ve just done for me. Leave a comment, tweet me, send me a message on Facebook or email me! I’d love to hear what has been going on with you.