There are a lot of comparisons I can draw between 2013 and now. Smal ones and very big ones. But today I would like to start with a brief recount of what prompted me to start this blog. Back in 2013 I – and believe me, I had to think back real hard for this – I was still in high school. Or rather, I was in my last year of high school. A year I had to retake because I failed my year by 0.1 points. I was angry, hurt, and above all insecure that even my best wasn’t good enough. That year I learned that sometimes, even though you work really, really hard for something, things don’t always work out just because you put in the effort. That sometimes you just have to take a deep breath, take a step back and then go at it again. During that particular year (in March) I decided to start my own blog: a little piece of the big and unknown interwebs carved out for me, to share with you. And although I have been many things as a blogger; passionate, consistent, chaotic, struggling motivated, inconsistent, and more; starting this blog is a decision I will never regret.
Blogging Then vs Now: Differences
When I look back at the girl I was then, I see some things I still recognize in myself nowadays, but there are also some things that I lost along the way. As I am feeling a bit sentimental (blame it on all the hard work getting this blog GDPR proof) I really feel like sharing some with you.
Books were my everything. Let me clarify this. Back in 2013, I think reading was a way of escapism for me. I spent most of my time with my nose in a book, instead of going out and experiencing things for myself. I was really insecure and wanted to avoid situations that made me uncomfortable by simply reading about them (it is very easy not to get hurt or your ego bruised that way). But over the course of that initial year, I realized that I, like those characters, wanted more for myself. I wanted a career, experience an epic love story, have badass friends that I could count on, and, above all, be more daring. If you add checkboxes in front of that list, most of those would be checked off (except for that epic love story, maybe all those books have set the bar too high). Books still are a huge part of my life: I am aiming for a career in publishing and I still read a lot of books, but my life is no longer wholly made out of books.
I used to be a (somewhat) consistent blogger. Unfortunately, that is proving to be rather difficult for me nowadays. I am officially amongst the top 10 of most inconsistent bloggers… Which my inner control freak loathes, but I am grudgingly coming to the realization that this is just how it is at the moment. Frankly, I am quite happy I can still call myself a blogger. And who knows, maybe in another few years I’ll do another one of these posts and will be the amongst the top 10 of organized bloggers. (Probably right around the same time when hell freezes over…)
The sheer amount of books I read for my blog is another thing that has really changed. I used to read and review ANYTHING I could get my hands on. Boy, do I have respect for people who are able to do that for all this time! Looking back I also realize that I felt like I had to review everything as well. And I really just don’t have the heart or time to do that anymore. Some books I want to review and write about, and others I just don’t. So that’s what I do. Blogging should always remain fun, and in order to do this, I incorporated other types of posts. Now, amongst those bookish post, you’ll also be able to find a plethora of post dedicated to other subjects.
Blogging Then vs Now: Similarities
Aside from all those differences, there is one thing that will probably always remain the same: my love and gratefulness for blogging. For without blogging I would never have taken the step to study English Language and Culture. Without it, I would never have interned at not only one, but two publishing houses. Without it, my love for books would have probably been something that I would have kept to myself and I would never have gotten to meet so many other readers (and authors!) that share the same passion.
So, sorry – not sorry – for the sentimental downpour in this post, but I can’t help but come to the conclusion that, to me, blogging is and will forever be something to cherish. I might be terribly inconsistent and sometimes feel so uninspired that I want to bang my head on a table, but there has never been a moment that I have wanted to pull the plug. Because, in the end, blogging played a huge part in shaping the person I am today, and that person I am pretty damn proud of!